Friday, December 02, 2005

i'm back. so down. just can't put it into words. tried to cover the feeling up by sleeping till 6pm every day, and spending the rest of the time myself non-stop till 3am. my sis told me, "you know, if you ate a little less, you'd be less unhappy."
"WHO SAYS I'M UNHAPPY?"
"aren't you unhappy cos you can't move properly?"
omg. i know i'm fat but i didn't realise that i was so fat that i look like i have difficulties in moving. geez. trying to keep myself occupied to block out this...sadness...wanted to do charity work but since I'M TOO FAT TO MOVE ABOUT i decided that it was a bad idea. so i voluteered to do the dishes. and the ironing. and somehow my dad expects me to vacuum AND mop the floor too. bloody hell, why did i do such a foolish thing? bored? can always go somewhere....why why why do housework?
anyway, my parents must have been a little concerned cos they asked me if i wanted to go back to perth for a few days to see my friends. i couldn't. cos if i did, i might never leave it. ever...

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Friday, July 08, 2005

in school, i'm known for my sleeping. random aussie girls come ot me and say, "whenever i look at you, your head is always on the table, face down" or "i remember in Mr Ford's class last year, you were sleeping everytime i looked at you.."
hey. i concentrate better with my eyes closed ok? fine. i admit i like sleeping. boarders claim that me and my friends hibernate. haha. no we don't. its like over 30 degree celcius here and i'm still sleeping. i reckon its coma. or maybe its chronic fatique. i've been forced to take blood test for glandular fever. dunno how i got it. or do i? possible. forgot to collect the result of the blood test so i guess i'll never know. it lasts for a week but the fatique can last for years. scary?
i think its too late but i should've applied for the special conditions thing for the TEEs. i suspect i have difficulty in concentrating after 1 hour. otherwise, why would my exam marks drop by 20% at least?
the DJ on 98.7 form 11 to 2 has a real fucked up accent. i know that mine isn't that great either, but its a result and accumulation of the people of different races i've met...korean, american, canadian, indonesian, hk, china, indian, saudi arabian, english, and the list goes on. so i have an excuse. that guy's? plain fucked up. i wanna ask him if he's related to....d..nevermind. xuan would probably know who i'm talking about...
its three am. not studying. should be, everyone around me are bucking up. i definitely should.

tinkling_raine | 2:39 AM| comment

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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

my blog is so fucking boring. but then again, my life is boring.
want some juicy details? no point-everyone knows thanks to my babbling mouth.
like...
how i went to church and i saw this really cute eurasian guy? and i went home, swearing to diet and keep in shape so that i wouldn't be such an eyesore for His Hotness if by some fat chance he would look my way...2 hours later i had forgotten what he looked like and felt that i got a little carried away as a result of reading too much of Jane Austen..the end. didn't even bother to exercise.
not my fault. being locked up in a boarding house is so freaking boring. and security is so tight that you have to SIGN OUT when you do laundry. hello? is it just me or has it been suddenly established that the laundry area in the boarding house is considered not a part of our school? huh? this i HUMBLY ask you, mary.... and innocent little doreen, do you sign out when you're freaking doing your laundry?

tinkling_raine | 1:45 AM| comment

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back in singapore again. yup!! its funny cos the last time i blog was when i returned to perth!! boy, time goes by REALLY quickly when your "death" is waiting for you. maybe not death. maybe its more like eternal doom.
i've wasted a whole year being an idiot. not studying. playing. and for once i know that unless i buck up, there is not going to be a miracle ending.
not anymore.
maybe i'm old enough to know how to do the right thing.
maybe i've enjoyed life a little too much this year.
maybe my luck has run out.

anyway, went out with emma mcDonald and her dad today. it turned out to be a very pleasant experience. maybe even fruitful. was enlightened many times.

tinkling_raine | 12:56 AM| comment

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Tuesday, June 07, 2005

sigh. back again-homesweet home. i got back yesterday, taxi driver was bery nice, he gave me a lolly. got locked out for being too early with a couple of other girls and froze for a few minutes before the boarding mistreses arrived. did laudry twice cos i forgot to add washing powder for the first time....changed bedsheets(i hate that cos i break a few nails each time)....ironed clothes, unpacked, cleaned desk...all the while listening to classical music...oh yeah.... and ate a whole lot of my roommate's food..
after everything was done, i snuggled in bed and continued reading my book in my 100 per hour speed and planned to finish my 600 paged book...however, was interrupted by Leah who had brought the dvd "life is beautiful"......and so we watched it on my bed. when it was done, we joined xuan to watch a korean dvd where i saw my future boyfriend.....yup, its gonna be him or someone like him anyway...it was 1am when we had fininshed the movie and i read a little bit more, then slept..

this morning...
heard this od voice nagging and nagging and nagging beside my bed and i was like.....what the hell is going on....shut up...and then

it hit me. i'm back.

8.20
i was walking out of my room, comforting myself, praising myself for every brave step i was taking towards doom itself, and suddenly, i just
dropped
180 degrees flat on the floor a few steps from my room.graphics calculator, books, on the floor..everywhere... it was then i knew, despite having a free during the first period and another free during the last, it was going to be a shitty day.
indeed i was right...mum calls me an old woman for being so into superstition but its not that-> its called gut feeling......geez.

tinkling_raine | 2:39 PM| comment

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Saturday, May 28, 2005

i was at the computer, and the mouse just wouldn't "roll" correctly..and i was slamming it against the table subconsciously when Leah looked and asked:

DON'T YOU JUST WANNA F**K THE MOUSE?

i was too amused to reply but Jaq said rather thoughtfully..

"wanna f*** the mouse? that's sad...."

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Friday, May 27, 2005

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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

day four (last day of study vac)
so... i wanted to wake up at like 6. reasonable right? but i woke up at 12 instead. it is like 6 pm now. and the thought that i couldn've studied for double the time that i've studied is killing me. and what's more.. i spent 2 hours on making my lunch and another 1 and a half hours at bayview or bumming around doing goodness knows what and half an hour studying and half an hour having dinner and here i am. so i studied only ................. half an hour. its sad, i know.

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